Likeskinnylove's Blog

13 june 2010, sunday: where to start?

likeskinnylove — Sun, 13 Jun 2010 18:33:13 +0000

I have so many things I want to tell, so much to share. I don’t know where to start…

29 may 2010, saturday: friday night was a crazy night

likeskinnylove — Sun, 13 Jun 2010 18:29:50 +0000

Yesterday could have ended bad, or I mean even more bad than it allready did.

I’m so tired right now so I’ll take this short!

I was wasted. Toally wasted. I had fun. I danced. I took shots. I smoked. I laughed. I called my ex and yelled at him for nothing. I passed out on a bench. My ex called again. I cried. My telephone died. (hahah omg he was so worried he told me today).

BUT NOW TO THE WORST…

I almost past out on a bench outside the club, and a handsome stranger carried me to a taxi and drove me home. I felt so ashamed..

(this was to be posted 29 may 2010)

29 may 2010, saturday: anxious about yesterday

likeskinnylove — Sat, 29 May 2010 19:49:50 +0000

Yesterday my dear childhood friend graduated from school and it was the P to the ARTY.

The day started at work. The rain didn’t stop us from being outside. One of the employees at the kindergarten was retiring so the day was a bit special. When I got off at 3 o’ clock, I picked up my nephew (he’s a child at the same kindergarten where I work) and went home to my mother who was going to be babysitting.

I stressed, stressed and stressed and finally I was ready to go to my friend’s reception. I’m so proud of her for graduating! :) Her father passed away about two years ago, she took a year off and has really been struggeling with school.

At E‘s place, me and A got a phone call. It wasn’t just anyone.. it was A!! She’s been in Australia for many months and wasn’t supposed to arrive until tonight! So she showed up and I gave her one million hugs and two millions of questions! :D She said she got home on tuesday (!!) and had surprised people all week. hahah.

In the next post I will tell you all about the evening and why I’m dying of shame today!!

27 may 2010, thursday: Disappointed

likeskinnylove — Thu, 27 May 2010 19:06:08 +0000

I want to cry. As usual, the anxiety is comming by the evening.

I’ve got headache.

Today started good with no breakfast.

Later at work, I felt the “need” to eat something to get energy. For the childrens sake. I’ve got to focus and be ready for any situation. Especially those hours when i’m keeping watch over our little autistic friend, I need the strength to run and keep him out of conflicts. I must say this is not easy! It’s hard becase I know they won’t let me work If I don’t eat and I really need this money and experience, and therefore…

…I have to do my best and put the Ana aside.. she’ll always come back though.

Now it’s time to watch Criminal Minds.

TalkToYouLater

25 may 2010, tuesday: My plans for tomorrow

likeskinnylove — Tue, 25 May 2010 21:05:51 +0000

9 o’ clock ’til 15’00: work at kindergarten

1600 – 1700: driving for license ;)

1700 -> : looking for presents to E who is graduating on friday

25 may 2010, tuesday: Billie the vision & the dancers – A man from Argentina

likeskinnylove — Tue, 25 May 2010 20:02:49 +0000

This is one of my favorite songs by Billie the vision & the dancers.It was the first song by them that I heard. I like their concept of making almost all of the songs about the story of Lily and Pablo :) I’m so happy I got to see them last saturday.

This is a band I strongly recomend!

25 may 2010, tuseday: The day before the day before yesterday

likeskinnylove — Tue, 25 May 2010 19:03:36 +0000

I’m sorry I have put the blog aside. It’s just that when I feel good, I don’t feel I have to write as much in the blog as the bad days. This blog is my saviour when I have to scream and shout and don’t have anywhere to run.

Maybe I feel better if I’ll write about the good days instead of the bad.

Today is a bad day. Yesterday was a bad day but the day before the day before yesterday was a lovely day haha.

It was saturday. I went to a club where the band “Billie the vision and the dancers” played. They were real good and it was the best atmosphere ever in the club!! I was there with R and his girlfriends that I didn’t even met when we were a couple.. But they seemed awesome :) it was a good night! With too much to drink, on our way home we spotted a kindergarten and rushed into it and started play. Swinging, climbing and playing you wouldn’t exactly believe we are 20 years old hahaha.

Oh, and outside the club there were an old nasty lady who tried to steal my cigarettes. She must have been on crack or something…

Talk to you later :)

25 may 2010, tuesday: Tears

likeskinnylove — Tue, 25 May 2010 18:44:15 +0000

Why do theese tears keep falling down my face?

19 may 2010, wednesday: Work, Driving license and Girl talk

likeskinnylove — Wed, 19 May 2010 15:36:46 +0000

Hello!

I have put the blog aside theese days, the sun is shining and the weather is hot. After this icing cold winter in Sweden, one don’t want miss theese beautiful days.. sorry.

I’ve worked on the kindergarten this week, and I have had two more lessons for the driving license. Life goes on… and this make the time and situation much easier. No time to think. At least thing have sorted out with M, but she has not been the only friend who has let me down theese weeks. I’m dissapointed at the of them. But whatever.

Yesterday B was here. We met A to be her company to dinner. I had allready ate, but she was hungry for a pizza, so I and B joined her and had a nice time of girl-talking :)

16 may 2010, sunday: Birthday party. Again.

likeskinnylove — Sun, 16 May 2010 17:10:29 +0000

Hello!

Today my other nephew has his birthday. He’s a big boy now, 11 years old :) It has been sun all day long and we’ve been out, sitting on the grass and just enjoyed the sun. I LOVE!

Tomorrow I will start counting kcals again. I’m working on the kindergarten every day next week but I’ll figure something out to keep my diet.

ttyl